I haven’t been feeling good lately. I’m the happiest person in the world but physically I’ve been feeling like crap. I’m always tired, and I’ve been having these weird chest pains with heart burn and I randomly get nauseous. And sometimes it’s accompanied by a headache also.

I don’t know if something’s wrong or if it’s an effect of the closet separation anxiety I’m having about going back to school and not living here with brad anymore.

The anxiety thing is sort of in my past so when I don’t experience the emotional side of it because I’m so used to controlling it now, I feel like I might still get the physical side of it without even knowing it.

I know I’m strong and I know I can emotionally snap out of it but sometimes I don’t want to. Sometimes I just want to cry and be held for 10 hours for no apparent rational reason. But I’m so glad I have Brad, he always makes me feel 100000% better.

Plus the fact that NO ONE ELSE UNDERSTANDS.